Public Humiliation

I am so sorry.


I am so humiliated. I am so embarrassed, shamed, and [insert something horrible]. Lord.... Talk about humbling. Let me explain...please:


Within say, the last two weeks... I've used a phrase two or three times in passing conversation that I genuinely believed to be innocuous and harmless. I used it again tonight at Small Group and I was immediately smacked down by at least 5 people. They explained what I'd actually said (it's a racial epitaph). I was appalled. I still am. And the worst part is... I don't remember who I said it to.

I'm not going to repeat it... You know who you are if you heard it. Geeze, what must you think of me? I would be terribly offended and let down if a good friend dropped something so nasty in such a flippant way... Which brings me to point #2:

Why the hell didn't you tell me? Seriously... If I'm talking with someone and they say/do something that is ridiculously out of character - and more than that- just plain wrong... I hope I would stop them right there and get an explanation. Please believe me, I had no idea. I'm not really mad at anyone but myself... And thoroughly disappointed.

Sorry folks.

J